Day 6: I despise you

28-29 Aug 2010

I woke up around 5:00 PM and took 1 piracetam and choline, and again at 10:00 PM and 3:00 AM. I did manage to get some sleep, and upon waking, immediately had to yell at several utter assholes who had commented on last night's video. You know, I'm constantly amazed at the ability of Youtubers to keep coming up with new ways of being viciously stupid, hateful, revolting and abjectly awful people, so sick and destructive and inhumane they barely deserve the title of human beings. Like posting on a video promoting an AIDS fundraiser just to say that the people who have it must have been "irresponsible" and "promiscuous", that it's a "relative non-issue", that it's only a "gay issue" and that means we're being selfish by funding AIDS research.

As if the lives of gay people don't count for anything. As if the millions who died never even mattered. As if anyone deserves to have AIDS. You who would dare suggest such a thing, you apathetic, oblivious waste, you managed to piss me off so much that I gave half of my last paycheck, for the cause you would rather disparage and ignore.

For the gay men. For the promiscuous. For those who are suffering and shouldn't be.

For the people you don't care about.

Because I do.

(Can you tell that the "good mood" might be wearing off?)

Anyway, the event went well, and I actually got to co-host with AronRa, the original long-haired YouTube atheist. Live shows are always interesting, especially given the kind of people I tend to attract and the questions they love to ask. It can get pretty frenzied. I really do need to get a better computer before I start doing my own shows on any kind of regular basis again, though.

On that note, there's another possible video topic that I forgot to mention yesterday. I think it may become necessary to clarify that I'm not trans, given that some people seem to assume that I am. I'm often asked to provide a trans perspective on some issue or another, and people should be aware I'm just not the right person to ask about that. I know, it would ruin the mystery, but I don't want people to get the impression that I'm speaking as a trans person when I'm not.

Later tonight, I wrote the next video, which came surprisingly easily to me - moreso than usual. I think it came out pretty well, and I hope that people will like it. I'll try to work on writing another one tomorrow night, if I'm in the mood. I do feel better now than earlier in the day, and I felt especially content while writing. It may have just been the chocolate scone, though.

The fundraiser is still going on until midnight (Eastern) tonight. Go visit and donate if you can.